When I started blogging I wrote a post Who am I? expressing my drawback of not knowing myself and judging according to what people felt about me.
With time I have known some important aspects of me which have changed my life.
The first thing I realized that I cannot tolerate people : who wear masks of fake emotions and distrustful stories or wish to contact me when there is no one else with them. I hate to beg for friendships whom I cared about but they did not give a damn. I stopped all this apologizing, begging and caring for them. What happened? I lost all my social circle. Initially it made me upset but now I don’t care because
“I made myself so busy that I did not have time for regret, frustration and care.”
Earlier I used to fear to express my thoughts. Fear of what people will think or say or the fear of being good enough. But with time I understood that being what you are is the solution which eliminates fear of all kinds. I started blogging and then painting without caring if it was good enough or not because expressing my thoughts made me feel satisfied and happy which no other thing could ever give me.
Just two realizations gave me inner peace and satisfaction without any social circle. All I have is my passion, my family and my one true friend.
I have just found a drop of water about myself. The whole ocean awaits to be discovered.